I am about a month into an experiment where I am trying to be intentional about the role my phone has in my life. It’s been a topsy-turvy month.
Why I did it
I was feeling a little burnt-out and one way I could take action to reduce the noise was via phone usage. I thought being more present in my non-digital life would lead to more enjoyment of those moments and would reduce the amount of overwhelm I was feeling.
How I went about it
I set a time limit of 10 minutes per day for my social media apps (the amount of time I thought I needed to check what people I know are up to) and then deleted them entirely. I deleted YouTube from my phone. I unsubscribed from all my podcasts. I allowed myself to check those sites via my computer browser or by installing the app and then deleting it when I am done. I participated less in group chats and messaged a couple of friends to go for coffee or lunch to catch up in person. I took notifications off all my apps and remove Email from my home screen and check it once or twice a day.
How I did
Week one my screen time decreased from about 7 to 3 hours per day. Over the coming weeks, it crept back up as I added the NY Times games app and Reddit onto my phone- newer things for me. I have since removed the games app and then set a limit of 15 minutes per day on Reddit as I think both are a bit distracting from the overall goal I had. I added some podcasting back in but it was much lower frequency.
I realized that I can catch up on friends’ activities on social media in about 3 minutes per day via browser. I haven’t felt like I need to visit more than once and haven’t visited the explore tab or scrolled anything other than content from friends. I also realized that checking my email once or twice a day has not impacted my life whatsoever. Most emails are not time-sensitive.
I now primarily use my phone to stream music, run fitness classes, stream Netflix if I am in the hot tub, some messaging with people, and some browsing.
Pros
In general, I feel calmer, less overwhelmed, and more present with my family and friends. Getting together in person with friends (vs. feeling like I am connected via group chats) was very beneficial and allowed for a depth of conversation I missed. I also have been going into work most days and have had more idle conversations in a month with my coworkers than I think I did in three months previously.
I haven’t been influenced to buy anything – in fact, I feel like I’ve hardly seen a product to buy at all this month. I’ve had more time for introspection which has helped me in therapy greatly. It’s difficult to tell whether it’s the sustained therapy or the phone (or a mixture of both) but I feel very content with my life in a way that feels foreign. I for the first time since I was maybe a teenager don’t feel particularly pressured to change anything about myself or my life.
Cons
Opting out of social media has meant full disconnection from some things. I have a few friends who I would idly connect with a few times a week over social media content or likes – those friends I haven’t connected with at all. I also have fell out of touch with a local running group who only really organizes via social media.
I also feel at times like I have lost a tool for managing my immediate mood/mental health – dissociation. If my emotions get dysregulated, my habit is to dissociate from everything to re-regulate – and now that I find myself without my headphones in, or without a screen in front of my face, I feel a lot more exposed in those situations. With that said, there were fewer of those situations in this month so it is very possible that the very solution to the short-term issue was causing it over the long-term.
Where we go from here
I think this was a clearly successful experiment and something I want to keep at.
I think on some level after years of using my phone a LOT, my brain doesn’t really know what to do with itself without it. I still reach for it a lot. I started doing crosswords, and then subscribing to Reddit, and on both filled in the same amount of time I would have spent scrolling on social media. Though both have some amount of value, I don’t think a lateral move to just use different apps is really what my life needs.
In many ways, digital communication has been my method for deepening connection for my whole adult life and I am not totally sure what my social life will actually look like without it. In many ways I think my loose tie social connections are drifting while my close tie ones are getting closer – and I think that might be a good thing provided people will come with me on this journey. But I notice the change and it is a little uncomfortable. This is something I want to unpack at another time.
I will check in after another month as well to see what has sustained and what has changed.